swimming. again,

well. a lot of my confusion about whatever the hell i was confused about seems to have subsided. its probably just because ive mastered the art of ignoring it. which, im sure, is going to be very bad in the long run. ive forgotten about my celebrity obsessions and such. but everytime i feel the least bit vulnerable, everything comes rushing to the surface again. probably not the best way to live...?swim season has started, so im constantly tired and sore. we have a hot swim coach :) yay. but its lots of fun. i dont actually have much else to say. oh. and im so confused over a guy i may or may not like.