ahh. highschool.

well, i havent written in a while. but now im in highschool. fun ehh?? ha. not. id kill to be in middle school again. does anyone else think that society is almost corrupt? like youre in highschool so you can be evaluated and then you have a final 'test' to see if youre into college and then you may proceed to be 'successful'. if you dont do well in high school, well then. fuck life. youre screwed. this is how i feel. it is not fun. i had a C in math last quarter (now i have an A) bu no matter what im gonna have a B on semesters. but this is seriously b.c. of our math teacher. he sucks. im not even like trying to push blame on other people, this man cannot teach. whatsoever. and in english i had a B+ last quarter and ive got an A- so far. and i totally just got a C on a bio test. seriously, i dont think anyone got an A on that one......people were like failing left and right. so not my fault there either. and you may think these are actually pretty good grades but once again. im asian. LJSHDJHWIEDKSDJN. god. this is very very stressful. like, now ik im gonna have like 1 or 2 B's on semesters and if i want to get into a good college, that is not gonna look too fantastic. i did not get off to the greatest start freshman year. oh well. its almost winter break. thats good. gosh. this is all i have to say for now. 

oh and i like this guy. 

who i have no idea if he likes me back. 

blub blub, imma fish

I dont know hu i like. which i guess means i dont like anyone. which also means that im slightly attracted to everyone. and its kinda annoying. one of the guys that i liked the most is in my class. and i found out one of my other friends like.. asked him out. and then she told me he asked her out. and idk which is true and this friend is becoming really annoying recently. she lies a lot and tries to make everything perfect. she cant have anyone not like her. and when she told me that "he asked her out" she was all like. "yah... so this guy like.... asked me out" in almost an exasperated tone

normalness

sooo, my life has been pretty much the same recently. except for, i dont know who i like. maybe i dont like anyone?? thats kinda cool. i guess there are a bunch of guys who i think are ok. so i guess one would consider that not liking anyone. sherrys the same old buttface she always is. so. yah.

.....

ok. ik i havent written in a while.. sry. ive been caught up in life. anywho.... i dont like danny anymore. not even in the slightest. hes a big flirt and befriended some bitches at our school and never talks to anyone in our friend group anymore. i sorta still like the one guy hus locker is next to mine and is in a bunch of my classes. but i also may like this guy in my math class.. idk. our group is continuing to fall apart. this one bitch jess[she was never my friend] and i got into a stupid facebook fight and then it ended and we didnt even talk about it at school then a couple days ago she brings it up and im like uh... ok. w.e. im just gonna ignore u. so i did. and then today she came up to our group of friends and accused one of my friends of making some kind of seating chart...? and this friend maddie. just HAS to be everyones friend and she doesnt want anyone not to like her. so shes being all nice to jess and complimenting her on EVERYTHING. and then goes and walks off with her. and everyone else is really pissed off. eighth grade drama. i know. its stupid and not even worth it. i know this may sound stupid but i really kinda want a bf..

spring break--more confusion

sooo. its spring break... there were like 6 ppl including myself at dannys house mon. and u know..it was kinda like..w.e. and then tues. there was a party at dannys house. and we played truth or dare. i he had to kiss me[[lips]] i had to straddle him and lick his neck[[weiiirrrddd]]. and then we were playing hide and seek in the dark and wen he found me and jess he was joking and sat on us. and then.....he kissed me. and during the next game like 6 ppl were all huddled in a corner and then somehow he ended up with his legs open and i was lying between them using his thigh as a pillow. and i sorta stil like him. and then at a party wed. nothing happened. ohh w.e. ik he sorta like me[[my firend found out]]. but he doesnt want to get back together...neither do i. ugh. idk. w.e. ill see wen we go back to school . i need to get over him.

i have no life whatsoever

so its spring break.and im at home. and i have absolutly nothing planned to do with friends or even anyone. jeeeez. i have noo life. im prolly gonna go see a movie with some friends. but thats about it.im gonna be soooo bored. i am bored.

back at the beginning--confusion

ugh. so idk if im over danny. i think i am. cuz recently hes changed sooo much. hes like a man whore now. i also think that im starting to like this other guy....brandon. we are in a lot of classes together,we sit right next to each other in four of them. im sorta friends with him. his lockers two away from mine. howeverhes popular and im not. so i probably do not have any chance whatsoever......wat am i to do?

COMPLICATIONS

i have no idea what to do. our group of friends is falling apart at the seams. everyone but two people hate sherry. everyone but two people hate these three bitchy girls that talk about our friends behind their backs and are kinda just bitches. everyone is sick of all the drama. danny is kinda sisding with the bitches in this thing. and everyone is sooo sick of all this DRAMA. i want it over. it needs to end. i dont even know wat is gong on anymore. i dont know wht to do. UGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH. more later.

I HATE SHERRY

omfg
i found out that sherry was pretty much just sabatoging my relationship
telling danny that i didnt like him when i did and that i was gonna break up with him, that i was avoiding him.
ALL UNTRUE, but danny believed her cuz he thought we were friends
UGH
I HATE HER

blah

didnt kiss him. we broke up. he said were better as friends. i dont exactly agree but w/e. were gonna stay as friends. soo.. yea. w/e. i was really upset at first. now i dont really care. i sppose u could say i got over him. these past few days have been a major turn off for me. i liked him less and less every day. all my friends and i know that sherry was sabatoging our relationship and thats part of why we broke up. it was a mutual break up. more later. idk wat to say right now.

confusion

so., yesterday my friend told me that danny was gonna break up with me if i didnt kiss by friday him or something because he though that i didnt notice him and that he liked me soo much more than i like him. [not true] then i talked to my other friend and she said that he said that he thought i was too good for him, he thought that i wanted the relationship to go fast when he wanted to go slow [ i want to go slow, not fast] but he thought otherwise. apparently he likes me a lot. but he thinks that its going too slow... IDK!! im sooooooo confused. and this is my first relationship. and he says hes gonna give it two weeks.. i think he wants the relationship to speed up 9we havent kissed yet..). so we aka all my friends are going to a friends house friday. and i was planning on kissing him there even before i found out he wanted to break up with me for those reasons. and i realized i really want to kiss him. so im gonna try to do it tmr..... idk!!! im nervous tho!.. ive never kissed a guy before. and i feel like the guy is supposed to kiss the girl first. i feel weird wen its me doing it.. HELP!

Fools Gold

i went to go see fools gold with danny yesterday..*sighs* it was amazing. he put his arm around me and then later i rest my head on his shoulder. it was so classic. and cute. ok. done now.

valentines day.

i thougth i should write about valentines day. mine was pretty good. how bout you? anyway the one bad thing about valentines day was that sherry got danny a giant hershey kiss. and she didnt even get her friends something that big. she gave the rest of us those big lollipops from walgreens that cost 1 dollar. wat was she trying to prove/do by giving danny (MY BOYFRIEND) a giant hershey kiss like that? ugghhhh. shes so annoying. she calls this one [popular] girl a bitch and then goes and pretends to be her friend. she sayd volley ball is a stupid sport and then almost trys out for the team. shes a hypocrit. she wears these preppy clips in her hair that dont do anything.. they arent clipping back her bangs! THEY JJUST HANG THERE! shes a big flirt. she flirts with ppl she knows her friends like. she blows off her friends for boys. I CANT STAND HER! and no one likes her anymore. but its hard to avoid her cuz our parents are friends. uUUGGGGGHHHHH

yippeee

danny asked me out on friday. im happy. i also want desperate housewives to be on... it stopped airing because of the writers strike. whatever. i can live without it. its kinda weird to b in a relationship.... this is my first one. hmm.. ill just wait and see

YYYYYAAAAYYY

i found out yesterday that danny likes me and he knows i like him. its a really long story. anyway, i also know that hes gonna ask me out next week YAYY

......wow...

my life lately has been so confusing idk if im gonna b able to write it all. i might not be able to go see sweeney todd until the 2 of feb and idk if its still gonna be out. im freaked out that its not gonna be.... a lot of other ppl have noticed sherry changing and they think its really, really, annoying and sherrys flirting with EVERYONE even guys that arnt even worth flirting with and danny doesnt like her anymore, he likes someone else, im not sure hu it is he wont tell me.

sweeney todd?

so, my friends dad is going with her to go see sweeney todd and he said he would bring me if my parents let me (im 13) so i asked my dad, he said it was fine. but he also wants to go (idk y....he wants to see it? he wants to protect me??) anyway, its rate R b/c of blood and gore, im not good at watching scary in ur face make u pee kind of movies. im ok with scary concept movies like signs and sixth sense ( those arnt even scary) anyway, im kinda wimpy like that. but i think im ok with blood. but, just how gory and bloody is this movie?? would i b able to cover my eyes in time???

so annoying

so sherry is tottaly annoying now. i think that she got a ego boost when she found out danny liked her and that i like him. now shes all girly girly flirty flirty. other ppl have noticed too. i talked to this one girl hus my friend and she finds it annoying as well. she laughs {flirts} sooo much. Shes all over guys... even the one she know i like. its so annoying. what should i do??