christmas

ok, im gonna list my christmas gifts!
pajama pants
alarm clock(mine was broken)
a thing you can charge your ipod with(in the wall)
red sweater
and then i wewnt shopping today at the mall and i got soo much!!
Brown converse
green striped v-neck sweater from AE
black formal pants (mine old ones were too small)from forever 21
white pants from hollister
and my sister got some stuff that im gonna wear (because i can fit into her clothes)
grey patterned sweater from forever 21
white v-neck sweater from h & m
my mom even got a sweater i like and can wear!\
black patterned sweater from ralph lauren

cishdckznsja

sigh, im in a kinda bad mood. ive got violin lessons tonight. sherry is still slightly annoying me. omg, i got these steve madden heels this past summer and they have soooo many knockoffs of my heels. I find it kinda funny. they have almost the same exact shoe, only ones from kohls and ones steve madden.

help

we r doing secret santa among our friends and i have a guy named noah, and we r supposed to have a gift for that person on friday. itd be really easy to get a gift for a girl, but i got a guy. Any ideas on wat to get him? (for under 10 dollars.....maybe 15)

urrrgh

so my friend sherry got a cell phone ( SHE GOT A CRAzER!) and i thought that was kinda weird because shes chinese also and chinese parents are really strict. SO i was thinking i was gonna sk my parents for a cell phone for christmas, only like , a pay as u go phone. POssibly used to call my parents when im out, text my friends occasionaly and i kinda wanted a phone just for the sake of having one (sounds stupid, ik). I didnt want a phone so i could use it on a regular basis. Thats y i just wanted a pay as u go phone. I asked my mom today and her reaction was, NO and i told i just wanted a pay as u go phone and i wasnt gonna use it a lot and she lik " u just dont understand!" (like im stupid or something) She goes on to say "ur sister only got a phone when she was 16!" (well obviously, phones werent very commen then). So theres my story.

ho hum

ive really got nothing to say.....im just kinda killing time till desperate housewives is on. Ive gotta take a ahower still. When i went shopping on last saturday, i went into delias and there were these really cute pants (not jeans) for 40 dollars, and i was like im not gonna get those! But id tried them on just for fun and they were soooooooo cute. its sad they were so expensive, but im not gonna get them, maybe one day theyll be on sale

Annoying.....a little

um..... im kinda confused. Sherry has been really different lately, or its just me thinking shes different. I dont know which. She laughs at everything (ecspecially when a guy like Danny or this other guy who we're friends with says it). It's like laughing is her way of flirting, but im pretty sure i like Danny and she knows it. She also knows he likes her. And theres this other guy, who we're also friends with and she just keeps on flirting (aka laughing). At least im pretty sure shes trying to flirt when she laughs. People are always like "sherry ur so cute!" and sqeezing her cheeks (dont ask, its hard to explain) and i think shes letting it get to her head or something. Whenever someone says that she smile really big and look up (like ....being cute or something) . I'm pretty sure shes trying to flirt with her laughing thing, and its kinda annoying, escpecially when its danny(who i like). UGGGH i really dont know. this whole situation is really hard to explain

yay

yay, im going shopping with my friends tomorrow. We couldnt go today, we were gonna though... ok thats all i have to say.

Thanksgiving

yea, nothing new with me these days we have a break from school cuz of thanksgiving. tomorrow my family is driving down to chicago to visit some friends. and that sounds really exciting, but its not. they dont live in the city, they live in the suburbs, so dont even get to go shopping. Chicago without shopping! its terrible! lol, i want to convince my parents to let us stay until friday, so we can go shoppiing on black friday, otherwise we just drive home thursday night. itll b boring to visit my parents' friends. its always boring. ugh. if we r not staying in chicago, im totally gonna plan a trip to the mall with y friends on friday. but idk if my mom will let me, cuz last time i went shopping i got 40 dollar jeans. and she paid for them and she though they were expensive, because 40 dollars for jeans is alot. ooooooooooo i wannna go to the mall with my friends alot now. i gotta plan a trip right now.

sick

ugh, ive had a fever 4 the past 3 days, i fell like crap. the only good thing that came out of this was that i dont have to go to my violin lessons tonight. im still confused about the whole danny thing, i still need to give it more time to see if i actually like him. but i think that if i need to give it this much time and that im still really confused, that i might not actually like him. i dont know y im so confused.

confusion

soooo, im not sure if i still like daniel or not, i think that sub-conciously i dont WANT to like him. but im not sure. i think i need to give it a little more time. im still really confused. hmm... i should talk bout something else.... i dont have anythihng else to talk about. ok, well... thats it.

confused

so, i was with sherry on saturday nite, and i told her the whole story, me liking danny, danny liking her. and it was good and it was...w/e. and i went to school today, and i was trying to act normal round danny, but, i dont know.... its really hard to explain. today was...weird. i dont know if i even still like him, im confused. w/e

AAAAAAA confused need help 11-10-07

AAAAAAA at the dance last night danny asked me to dance with him, as a ffriend(b/c he likes my best friend sherry.....obviously) and so we danced to chasing cars and it was amazing, but, it makes it sooo much harder 4 me to get over him. BECAUSE HE LIKES MY BEST FRIEND (they r not goin out and she wasnt at the dance.) HHHEEEEELLLLLLPPPPPPPP wat should i do?????????????????????????? should i tell sherry i like him? im soooooooooo confused

mt life suxx a** 11-9-07

so today sucked like no other. i found out that guy i like (danny) like my best friend Sherry and sherry doesnt know i like danny. and sherry doesnt know danny likes her but he will probably ask her out... soon. he was gonna ask her to the dance to nite but she wasnt goin. i need help. the the hell should i do?

whoo jk rowling 11-8-07

today was stressful, i have stuff due for hw, that im not nearly done with and that i can only work on in school on the schools computers UGGGGGHHHH. oh and jk rowling is up 4 times person of the year, vote 4 her here http://www.time.com/time/specials/2007/article/0,28804,1672153_1674439_1674440,00.html
thats alli have to sya today.
im gonna get such a low grade on those assignments.
im not close to done with one of them, and its due really soon.

10-5-07 ....hhhhmmmmmm

so today was another day at school. mostly a bad day.... we were starting, eclipse ball in gym (using wooden rackets, a badmitton net and a rubber ball larger than a tennis ball, about the size of 3-4 tennis balls) and my gym teacher wanted to demonstrate to the class how to play and she picked me and 2 other ppl to get up and demonstrate real quick. so i was on one side with another person, gym teacher and other person on the other side. by the way, i play tennis, with lower nets and the ball bounces differently and a lot of other differences. so the ball bounced to my side and i was gonna hit it forhand, i got all ready and swung, like it was tennis, and i totally MISSED it, and everyone laughed. IT WAS TERRIBLE, so embarassing. its a good thing i dont blush. i think im over ben. i just need to stop thinking about him and try to avoid him. b/c im pretty sure i like danny. im just so confused. im not totally sure if i like danny.

ughhh 11-2-07

today was a really good, but also terrible day. Ben, the guy i was madly in love with last year and am really confused about this year (b/c i never talk to him anymore and i dont know if i like him or not) well, we were walking by each other in the hall i was going to go get a drink of water and he turned to look at me and pretended to laugh at me while we were walking, like snikering, but as a joke. and i was like, hey.....! (like hey, stop [[jokingly]] laughing at me. and i was drinking water from the blubber thingy and he stood behind me even tho he didnt want water, when i was done he started fake laughing at me again and he was staning sorta behind me and started playing with the hood of my sweatshirt. so i jokingly pushing him and ....(since we dont really talk anymore) he said , so hows this yr for u so far? i said, fine, and then (since im chinese and have a crazy math brain and go up to the high school every morning with someother ppl to take honors geo, even tho we r in 8th grade) he was like "nerd, nerddd..."., again jokingly and i was like, at least im smarter than u. (as u can see we always joke like this... i mean last yr when he was in my class and i was friends with him we would always joke like this). and all that time (after i drank water) i was walking back to my spanish class, which was the opposite direction of which he was supposed to be going and he was kinda walkingwith me to talk to me, and then he turned around to go back to where he was supposed to go. and yea... so i just was getting pretty much getting over him and liking danny and then he comes back into my life and talks to me, and i like him more and now im getting over him less. and i want to get over him, SOO BADLYYYY. i could have siad a lot more witty things to ben and flirted more, but i didnt think of my witty comments till our conversation was over. and now i have the perfect response to his questiona nd i thought of more things to say.... uggggggggghhhhhhh i need to get over him. GOD DAMMIT!!!!!!!!!!! i cant stand liking him and not being able to talk to him, tho i think its a good thing b/c then i can get over him faster, but not if things like this keep happening, but i dont object to them that much, but i do object to them. UUUGGGGGGGGHHHHHH has anyone else been like this b4, someone neeeeeeeddddddsss to HELLP MEEEE!!!!! and im starting to like danny more, but not as much as ben. last yr i loved ben sooooooo mcuh and it wasnt just a sloww progressive thing where i start to like him more and more, within the coarse of 3 days, i was madly in love with him and i wantED HIM SO BADDD. and i dont know if i really like danny, i think its just a crush/short term thing(liking danny) i think ill get over danny, even tho i dont really want to get over him. i want to like danny so i can stop thinking about ben all the time. its not as bad as last yr tho, thats good. HELP

sfddr 11-1-07

ugh, my mom is soo stupid, she yells at me every time i have an atitude or a bad tone of voice, only cuz im frustrated and angry at other people, not her. its so stupid. i think i like danny, i think im over ben. but my friend went out with danny s o nothings gonna happen. UGH so he is like out of bounds. PPPOOOOOOOOPP. ugh, bad mood. gonna go....... week b4 that time.....

borrring, 10-29-07

today was just another boring day. im so confused abou hu i like. i dont know if i like danny or ben. i need to get over ben , hes popular, and im not. I NEED HLEP GETTING OVER HIM!!!!!! HELPPPP, seriously, someone needs to give me some advice. anyone have an idea of wat to do????????????? and i dont think danny likes me anyway.

trick or treat, 10-28-07

so today i have chinese school its so boring, but i get to leave early cuz today is trick or treating
im going with sum of my friends. trick or treating will never get old, and then, im gonna watch desperate housewives, i watch it every sunday. do any of u guys watch it? i want to know wat happend to dylan, my theory is that her father abused her adn then she got a concusion or something so she cant remember her life. If i were her mom though, and i was trying to hide it, i would kinda teach dylan wat she had forgotten otherwise everyone would find out. so that was a stupid move on her part..

...10-27-07

so today nothing happened, I tried to hem my own pants and it kinda worked!! I did it by hand too, our sewing machine is 700 yrs old and i probably wouldnt have been able to work it anyway, so i did it by hand it turned out ok, i still have to fix it alittle....

SHOPPING, 10-26-07

omfg, my mom brought my friend and I shopping today and i got so mcuh stuff im sooo excited. ok, so we went to this mall like 20 min away from our house. i got a shirt from abercrombie and fitch for 15 dollars, a shirt from hollister for 17 dollars, the one from hollister is reslly cute its a babydoll shirt thats whit (ugh, i sound like im totally following trends, but im not kidding im not like that where all i care about is brand names and always follow trends, i think thats really annoying im soo not like that, i shop 4 cute clothes, i shop at forever 21 alot but the store in the mall was closed for renevation) and i got those jeans that i wanted from hollister ugggghh for 40 dollars that is soooo expensive but i thought they were soo cute. they r called venice low rise they r dark wash jeans (i wanted dark wash jeans before they were in style so im still not following trends if thats what you think) and then my mom wen shopping again at like kohls andgot me another pair of jeans, 15 dollars (im surprised i thought she woulnt buy me anything fo like a million yrs cuz of those 40 dollar jeans) and she got me a white sweater from GUESS (ik.......crazy, i dont own anything from those top designers till now) ok, and our family is soooo NOT rich cuz it kinda sounds like it when you hear my getting Guess clothes and 40 dollar hollister jeans but we r soo not rich, like at all

No school today 10-25-07

omfg
violin lastnight was terrible im not even gonna go ino details. I want to go shopping with my friends at the mall tomorrow, idk if my mom is gonna let me. I think she will though. I want these jeans from hollister, but they r 40 dollars, that is sooo expensive, i never buy things that expensive, my mom says thats way too expensive and she might buy them 4 me. Do u think i should get them?? ok, well gtg now

Half day! 10-24-07

today was a half dy at school. so im home early. i just was looking at clothes online at ae.com that store is sooo expensive, but cheaper than hollister and abercrombie and fitch. Their clothes r cute but ridiculously overpriced. I dont really have much to say, oh, i have violin lessons today. I hate them. my mom is always yelling at me to ractice violin. its so annoying. i would like it so much more if she wasnt always yelling at me to practice. Does anyone know whati should do to make myself want to practice or not resent it so much??? i really am so annoyed. and then, when i go to private lessons i sometims do bad and my mom gets soo angry at me. UUUGGGGH and then she makes me practice more I want to get better at violin and stuf its just that i dont really enjoy practicing....at all. HELP!, so thats all i have to sayy......

...today, 10-23-07

wow....im bad at thinking of titles for my blog entries.....so today i went to a nursing home for this community service thing and yea.. we were put into 2 groups and i was seperated from my best friend and the guy i liked last yr but am confused about this year b/c i barely talk to him. I was in the same group as the guy i think i might start to like.... so im kinda confused bout both. But i guess its a good thing i was seperated from guy 1 cuz, i relaly need to get over him, hes popular and its not like anything is gonna happen between us. but, guy 2 is one of my friends. if he ever asked me out, i dont know if i would say yes because my friend went out with him last year and broke up with him. isnt that like a [girl] rule of life?? can't go out with ur friends ex's??ugh, my dad is such a stupid butt face (i would swear but are we allowed to on this blog thing?) I formatted an article for a maazine and he reformatted it and changed ALL of it and now it looks stupid and wont change it back, hes such a little baby. he acts like a little kid, always has to have his way even if his way is sooooo stupid. OK so, im gonna tell u bout my friends and stuff. My best friend, Sherry(not using real names) ive known her since 2nd grades shes also chinese so we have a lot im commen we do so much together. another friend, emily is the one that went out with guy 2 that i think im starting to like right now. thn theres Beth who is my neighbor but can sometimes be really annoying and u just want her to go away she can be really clingy. then theres melinda, not like a clse friend but, a friend shes such a flirt though. She can be nice when shes not within like a 20 ft radius of a guy. ok, then theres guy friends. Danny, guy i think i might like. Ben, guy i liked last year. Ken, just another guy friend and Noah, another guy friend, he can be kinda anniying. Oh yea,another friend is Jillian shes really nice. ok, well thats all thats on my mind today... any advice on my guy confusion??

Blog nuber one...10-22-07

Ok, so i don't have much time for my first blog.. let me tell you about my self, im 13 ive never had a boyfriend... and i feel kinda desperate right now, im chinese with really strict parents and my life is ok at times, great at time, and bad at times. .....and guess what happened today?? .....nothing, today was just another day at school, like another boring day not one thing exciting every thing was so normal, well thats 75 percent of my life for ya! oh yea, and there are these two guys i think i like and im soooo confused about... w/e