ahh. highschool.

well, i havent written in a while. but now im in highschool. fun ehh?? ha. not. id kill to be in middle school again. does anyone else think that society is almost corrupt? like youre in highschool so you can be evaluated and then you have a final 'test' to see if youre into college and then you may proceed to be 'successful'. if you dont do well in high school, well then. fuck life. youre screwed. this is how i feel. it is not fun. i had a C in math last quarter (now i have an A) bu no matter what im gonna have a B on semesters. but this is seriously b.c. of our math teacher. he sucks. im not even like trying to push blame on other people, this man cannot teach. whatsoever. and in english i had a B+ last quarter and ive got an A- so far. and i totally just got a C on a bio test. seriously, i dont think anyone got an A on that one......people were like failing left and right. so not my fault there either. and you may think these are actually pretty good grades but once again. im asian. LJSHDJHWIEDKSDJN. god. this is very very stressful. like, now ik im gonna have like 1 or 2 B's on semesters and if i want to get into a good college, that is not gonna look too fantastic. i did not get off to the greatest start freshman year. oh well. its almost winter break. thats good. gosh. this is all i have to say for now. 

oh and i like this guy. 

who i have no idea if he likes me back. 

blub blub, imma fish

I dont know hu i like. which i guess means i dont like anyone. which also means that im slightly attracted to everyone. and its kinda annoying. one of the guys that i liked the most is in my class. and i found out one of my other friends like.. asked him out. and then she told me he asked her out. and idk which is true and this friend is becoming really annoying recently. she lies a lot and tries to make everything perfect. she cant have anyone not like her. and when she told me that "he asked her out" she was all like. "yah... so this guy like.... asked me out" in almost an exasperated tone

normalness

sooo, my life has been pretty much the same recently. except for, i dont know who i like. maybe i dont like anyone?? thats kinda cool. i guess there are a bunch of guys who i think are ok. so i guess one would consider that not liking anyone. sherrys the same old buttface she always is. so. yah.

.....

ok. ik i havent written in a while.. sry. ive been caught up in life. anywho.... i dont like danny anymore. not even in the slightest. hes a big flirt and befriended some bitches at our school and never talks to anyone in our friend group anymore. i sorta still like the one guy hus locker is next to mine and is in a bunch of my classes. but i also may like this guy in my math class.. idk. our group is continuing to fall apart. this one bitch jess[she was never my friend] and i got into a stupid facebook fight and then it ended and we didnt even talk about it at school then a couple days ago she brings it up and im like uh... ok. w.e. im just gonna ignore u. so i did. and then today she came up to our group of friends and accused one of my friends of making some kind of seating chart...? and this friend maddie. just HAS to be everyones friend and she doesnt want anyone not to like her. so shes being all nice to jess and complimenting her on EVERYTHING. and then goes and walks off with her. and everyone else is really pissed off. eighth grade drama. i know. its stupid and not even worth it. i know this may sound stupid but i really kinda want a bf..

spring break--more confusion

sooo. its spring break... there were like 6 ppl including myself at dannys house mon. and u know..it was kinda like..w.e. and then tues. there was a party at dannys house. and we played truth or dare. i he had to kiss me[[lips]] i had to straddle him and lick his neck[[weiiirrrddd]]. and then we were playing hide and seek in the dark and wen he found me and jess he was joking and sat on us. and then.....he kissed me. and during the next game like 6 ppl were all huddled in a corner and then somehow he ended up with his legs open and i was lying between them using his thigh as a pillow. and i sorta stil like him. and then at a party wed. nothing happened. ohh w.e. ik he sorta like me[[my firend found out]]. but he doesnt want to get back together...neither do i. ugh. idk. w.e. ill see wen we go back to school . i need to get over him.

i have no life whatsoever

so its spring break.and im at home. and i have absolutly nothing planned to do with friends or even anyone. jeeeez. i have noo life. im prolly gonna go see a movie with some friends. but thats about it.im gonna be soooo bored. i am bored.

back at the beginning--confusion

ugh. so idk if im over danny. i think i am. cuz recently hes changed sooo much. hes like a man whore now. i also think that im starting to like this other guy....brandon. we are in a lot of classes together,we sit right next to each other in four of them. im sorta friends with him. his lockers two away from mine. howeverhes popular and im not. so i probably do not have any chance whatsoever......wat am i to do?